This is super late, but I bet it was awesome.
Glee - Goodbye - Promo
Crying at the promo, i’m gonna die.
My number one pick for a 21st dress, been checking Modcloth everyday hoping it comes back in stock. Finger crossed!
Uncharacteristically pessimistic little ramble that I will probably delete tomorrow.
For the last few days i’ve been getting back into all the music I loved when I was 16. Like crazy. All I want to do is sit and listen to entire albums staring into space.
And it’s really shaking me up.
It’s crazy the things that I remember all of sudden. I was a teenager in a small town, it felt a million times smaller than it was. Boys in bands were my obsessions, I couldn’t imagine anyone doing anything more exciting. I didn’t have any plans for life but I knew it was going to be awesome. I had the best friends.
When the new Fall Out Boy cd came out me and my friend Kelly spent a Saturday on my bed under my mosquito net with the lyrics booklet and listened to it over and over until we knew every line. I had completely forgotten about that.
I remember going to Auckland for my first real concert. My friend’s mum drove us. I was so excited. I didn’t know what shoes to wear. I told everyone I was with not to embarrass me, then I embarrassed them. It was so surreal to me, it still is every time.
I can’t believe I forgot any of these things, I want to write them down and keep them forever.
I was so frustrated about being young and living in small town New Zealand and not knowing what to do with all my ideas. But I had such big ideas! I was so excited about growing up and getting out and doing everything I ever wanted to do. The day I left for uni was probably the most exciting day of my life. A week later I called my parents crying and telling them I had to come home. I didn’t, but I still usually wish I did.
I’m not sure if it makes sense how this all fits together but I think that i’m feeling like I let 16 year old me down a little. I want to do something I care about and live in a town where there are lots of people I love and not go to bed already exhausted at the idea of getting up in the morning.
And I really want to be able to listen to my favourite songs in five years time and feel like i’ve actually done something.
